About Me
Hi, I'm Murdock's Mom.

I have always been an introvert. Not shy, just rarely finding the deep connections that I craved.
Despite being raised in a loving family and meeting wonderful people along the way, I often felt alone – not lonely, but that I had not found my mooring, my home. When Murdock came into my life, that changed. A soul that chose to love me unconditionally, with whom, for the first time, I finally felt complete.
We had an amazing life together. We went for hikes in the woods. We had ice cream dates every Saturday night. We went swimming (well, he swam and I threw the frisbee). We ran after squirrels on our walks in the neighborhood. We sat in the yard on summer days. We cuddled during thunderstorms and fireworks (he was terrified). We took naps together. Every night at bedtime, I told him I loved him more than all the stars in the sky.
For 15 years, it was Murdock and I, and it was enough. He was enough. Being his mom was better than anything I could have imagined during those 30 years waiting for him. I was home.
On September 14, 2022, the lights went out in my world. Murdock went to heaven peacefully, his head on my lap, under a tree in my yard. It was a tough road to get to that moment, for both of us. He fought cancer for a year, along with deteriorating as a senior dog. I suffered from debilitating anticipatory grief. And then, he was gone, and so was our life together. I was homeless once more.
Since that time, I have struggled. This grief is a weight that I carry with me every day, and many days, it is unbearably heavy. It’s difficult to have experienced the fullness of life, and then feel empty, again. Yet, I am also comforted by my grieving. It is my final and lasting way to honor my boy, and it makes me feel closer to him.
This community was borne of the desire to share with others who must navigate life after losing a furry best friend, but also to honor our great fortune of having found a soulmate, if even for a short time. They will not forgotten; they will always be our home.
-Kate

“The part of my life where I had you will forever be my favorite.”
